A lot of people caught my tweet about gkicking someone for using healbot. I think it warrants a bit of an explanation.
There’s an ongoing joke in the guild about my “Hatred” of healbot. We had a healer back in BC who used it exclusively. When healbot and decursive broke he couldn’t heal. When I mean couldn’t heal, I mean literally could not heal. Usually this person would top the healing charts and be the one that saved the day, without the mod they just completely and utterly failed. On a personal level I just couldn’t imagine being that dependant on a mod. I was utterly floored. A week later, decursive broke on a day we were doing Archimonde attempts, again there were more people absolutely dependant on a mod in order to allow them to perform a function on their characters. The raid failed and we made zero progress because people couldn’t get their game together without this mod functioning.
This lead to Lodur writing a rather lengthy post on the guild forums about addon dependancy. Personally I feel that if you get to a point where you can’t play a game without an addon, there’s a problem. After my post a bunch of people began to make fun of my “hatred of healbot” and it became a really big joke where guildies would make comments like “oh don’t mention healbot, joe will flip out on you!”
Last night one of our newbies and my applicant was on his paladin and a mutual friend of ours who I’ve been gaming with and in quild with for almost three years. He gets our newbie to exalt the virtue of Healbot. Me being the goofball I am at 3 am go on a “rant” to which the newbie responds with jibes right back at me. I like this kid a lot, he’s good people we joke around a lot. I hung out with him at blizzcon and talked a bunch. Good people. So he eventually makes the height joke. I’m a short guy, I’ll admit that. He’s about a clear foot taller then I am, so it’s very comical for me to stand near him. He says “ok hate it all you want I’m still taller then you are!”, it then breaks down into how much of an ass I am etc etc. Normal guy friend stuff (at least for me). So me being me my finger slips on the gkick button. our mutual friend then falls over laughing. I proceeded to send him tells telling him he’s not allowed in until he learns to heal without healbot, and when he thinks I’m 100% serious I invite him back. We all have a BIG laugh about it and the general “I hate you, you’re such an asshole” exchange between friends goes on before we call it a night.
So the bottom line is I DO NOT have a problem with the mod as a whole. It’s just a running joke among the guild that variously escalates. Hope that sheds some light on it. It wasn’t real I didn’t ACTUALLY kick him for using healbot. I kicked him because it was funny =D the people on got a kick out of it.
A lot of people keep pinging me for this and Matt already posted one at www.worldofmatticus.com and I still feel a little odd about posting some things up there like this when I have this perfectly good blog to dust off once in a while.
So here it is!
What is the name, class, and spec of your primary healer?
Lodur, Restoration Shaman
What is your primary group healing environment? (i.e. raids, pvp, 5 mans)
25 man PvE raiding
What is your favorite healing spell for your class and why?
Everyone is expecting me to say Chain Heal I know it, but I’m going with Tidal Force. it gives you that extra little OOMPH when you need it on both your Healing Wave spells and your Chain Heal
What healing spell do you use least for your class and why?
Honestly there isn’t a single one I don’t use! but of all the tricks I have I do use Healing Wave the least.
What do you feel is the biggest strength of your healing class and why?
We’re versatile.We can easily roll between Single Target and Raid healing at the drop of a hat.
What do you feel is the biggest weakness of your healing class and why?
People have this perception that Shaman are broken and can’t keep up with the other classes on both Single target and Raid healing. This perception makes it hard to show some people how amazing we are as healers.
In a 25 man raiding environment, what do you feel, in general, is the best healing assignment for you?
Raid Healing. The amount of Heal Per Second and Heal Per Mana a Shaman can put out while rolling heals on a raid is sometimes pretty ludicrous.
What healing class do you enjoy healing with most and why?
I love them all but if I had to pick one it would be Druids. I’ve two healed a 10 man with a druid and the two classes just compliment each other so well with their versatility.
What healing class do you enjoy healing with least and why?
Priests that do nothing but spam Circle of Healing >.> this is an old wound but every now and then I’ll get into a pug that has one that does it. No clue why it bothers me so but that’s it
What is your worst habit as a healer?
My worst habit as a healer is watching the mana bars of the other healers in the raid with me >.>
What is your biggest pet peeve in a group environment while healing?
DPS that won’t do anything to help keep themselves from dying. Standing in fire, eating cleaves, not using lock stones or potions, standing in fire, not casting FD or Vanish when threat is high, oh… and standing in fire.
Do you feel that your class/spec is well balanced with other healers for PvE healing?
Shaman are very well balanced when paired against all the other healers. We may not have as many healing spells as say a priest, but we do damn fine with the ones we’ve got.
What tools do you use to evaluate your own performance as a healer?
World of Logs. After a raid I’ll upload my combat log and go over the percentage of spells cast and make sure I’m using the right ones based on mana consumption. I’m not a meter healer, I just like making sure I’m doing the best I can with my HPS and HPM
What do you think is the biggest misconception people have about your healing class?
That shaman can’t heal heroics >.> no, seriously. Go HERE and read about my experience with this lol
What do you feel is the most difficult thing for new healers of your class to learn?
Finding a balance between spellpower and MP5 and then learning their healing rhythm. It’s a lot harder than it sounds when you’ve never healed as a shaman before.
If someone were to try to evaluate your performance as a healer via recount, what sort of patterns would they see (i.e. lots of overhealing, low healing output, etc)?
Honestly there is no pattern. My recount / WoL / Stats for a raid change based on raid composition as well as what roles I fill in during the raid. Some nights I top the Overheal, others I’m no where near the top.
Haste or Crit and why?
Haste, I’m a haste junkie as I love having my chain heal below a 2 second cast time!
What healing class do you feel you understand least?
Holy Paladin. Never played as one and haven’t spent enough time around them to know them inside and out.
What add-ons or macros do you use, if any, to aid you in healing?
only one I use that could be considered healing related is grid and thats just because blizzards default raid frames blow. other than that nothing.
Do you strive primarily for balance between your healing stats, or do you stack some much higher than others, and why?
I’m not a min maxer. I like having all my stats balanced so that I can bounce between everything I need to in a raid.
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Lodur awoke in the early hours of the morning, but unlike before he felt rested. True to the farseer’s word O’ros had gifted the tired shaman dreamless sleep, and for that he was truly grateful. As Lodur shook the last grips of sleep he was startled to see Nobundo sitting on a stool next to the bed. The old shaman had his eyes closed and a totem held between his hands. A glance around the room told Lodur that they were alone, even the caregiver was nowhere to be seen.
“I see even Breel gives the Farseer wide berth when he makes a house call” Lodur noted a smile forming on his mentors face “but that usually means bad news, doesn’t it?”
Nobundo opened his eyes and regarded Lodur with an apologetic look;
“I regret that you are correct in your conclusion. My news is not that which I would choose to bear. I have spoken at length with the spirits trying to find all before and after your dream. The path however, is blocked from even the oldest of our ancestors. There is naught our efforts can do to pierce the veil.” The Farseer shifted uncomfortably on his stool and placed a hand on Lodur’s shoulder “I’m sure you already know, your dream is a portent to the future. It is an event that is immutable… the dream is the event of your death.”
Lodur had that thought shortly after the dreams began. He had hoped it was just some trick of the skull of Gul’dan, but deep down he knew what it was. He regarded his mentor now, a look of fierce determination about his features; “I do not fear death. I helped slay the Demon General in his own lair, I have walked the gate of time and defended the World Tree, I have paced through the halls of The Eye after dethroning the Bloody Prince of Lies. I have cleansed the temple of our people from the foul stink of the Betrayer and defended the Sunwell from The Deceiver.” Lodur stood slowly. “I have done much good with my time I believe. If I am to die I shall meet it honorably and shall join the line of my people back to the beginning.”
Nobundo stood as well and locked eyes with Lodur “That my boy, is more than most of us can say. You have done much to defend the balance and it has not gone unnoticed. The spirits will watch over you in your journeys. Your ancestors and the essence of all things living will be there with you.” Pride shone in the farseer’s eyes “The only question that remains my pupil, is what path will you choose from here?”
The young shaman stroked his chin thoughtfully; “I hear there is an expedition headed to Northrend. The alliance will surely need healing in the cold wastes of the north. They seek to bring down the Lich King and I’m certain I can lend them a hand and hoof.” the smile of a man with purpose slowly crept onto Lodur’s face “I feel that is my destination. It feels… like the right choice.” Lodur clasped arms with his mentor “Thank you teacher, whether in this life or the next I shall see you again.”
Nobundo nodded and then handed Lodur the totem he had been holding onto. The farseer didn’t say anything, he just patted Lodur on the shoulder, and then headed off to his little area to begin the lessons of the day. Lodur watched him go and then looked at the totem. It was intricately carved and made out of a wood he had never seen. It looked as though all the elements were carved into it, all blending into one another. An object lesson perhaps? He put the totem in his relic pouch then grabbed his backpack. Lodur walked out of the Exodar and casually made his way to the docks. It was time to head to Menethil Harbor and secure passage to Northrend. After all what better place to begin the hunt for the fallen son of Lordaeron?
So, I was going to keep my old blog for just fan fiction, but I need a space to vent and doing so at WoM would be a bad idea, so I’m going to dust off the old blog for a comment or three here.
I caused quite a stir over at WoM with my post on the guild egoist. It got a lot of comments both good and bad. The bad tended to gloss over the content and focus on the verbage. Syd made a reply post and I feel like I should respond but I really don’t want to do that there.
Over the last couple days I’ve been called a misogynist, a pig and I’ve received various “hate mail” about my article. I’d like to say a few things about that. Am I mad at Syd’s post? No far from it. She has every right to respond and dish out what she did. I did however feel like a small child being told “I know you meant well, but what you did was wrong”. My post was a request by two of my readers (and they are female for those who will ask that question). It was a topic they wanted to see covered and talked about that no one really seems to have done before. What I did was take a terribly difficult topic, and give it my best go. Did I do a great job? Not as good as I could have done as many other people have pointed out, but then again no one has attempted to pick up the challenge I laid at the end of the post. No one wants to touch it.
let me give you a bit of background on me. I grew up in a family raised by two women, my grandmother and mother. My closest companion growing up was my younger sister. I was raised on old school ideals of chivalry and honor. I grew up with a healthy respect for women, I mean I owe my well being to two very strong and loving women. Women who gave up a lot to make sure I had an education and a happy childhood. Growing up I knew about feminists and female rights activists, people who desired equality in all things, and I did and still do support them. About when I was 13 I got my first slap in the face. I held the door open at a local store for a woman, she literally slapped me in the face and called me a chauvinist. I was bloody 13 years old! When I asked my mother about it my mother said to me
“Everyone wants to be equal, some people just want to be more equal then others. some people just want to see what they see the way they see it. Just keep doing what you’re doing”
What this meant to me as a teenager, You can’t help everyone because not everyone will see it as help. People will not always see the intent behind your actions. Growing up from that point I continued to hold doors open and be a gentleman. I’ve received the slap in the face verbally a few times after that, but never wavered.
When I got out of high school and made my way into college I met a wonderful professor by the name of Prof. Ewits. The man had written numerous books and studied American history extensively. He was also well versed in psychology and anthropology as well as english . He was an all around scholar. In the first week of class we were studying the puritan texts of the nations founders. I’ll never forget his talk that day.
“The words in this book are outdated. They are the same words we use today, but their meaning has been lost or warped over time. The word have power, weight and meaning because we gave it to them. Take a look at the word Queer. The word had the meaning of ‘to hinder or prevent’, now it has become a term to describe homosexuality. It didn’t get that way overnight, we as a people gave that meaning to the word. Only we as people can strip that meaning away. I urge you to keep this in mind as you read these books. Don’t giggle at the words, don’t exclaim how the books are biased or sexist. Read the words for what they are in the context they are written. Strip them of their negative connotation before you proceed”
This made a hell of a lot of sense to me. I thought about it for a while and I saw his point. I still see his point and I think it’s 100% right. We give these words meanings we give them power. We can blame the meaning that someone gave them 100 years ago, or we can make an effort to change it. Sadly, some words change for the worse. Before it was tained by a negative connotation, the word “gay” was used to describe cheerfulness, something bright and pleasant. It was warped to become a term to describe homosexuality. If I were to say, “that’s fellow is quite gay” you wouldn’t think I was saying he was happy would you?
My post was not an attempt to label an entire community. It was not an attempt to apply a term to all female gamers. I was describing a type of gamer. period. no gender, just gamer in general. In my guild, I’ve had more men then women fit these categories. The diva, we had a male player who did this. Would flirt with the women in the guild hold up raids and cause wipes doing so. Would occasionally mistell with some very provocative things and generally cause lots of trouble. We’ve also had a female who have done this. Both of them were refered to by us as diva’s. In truth I’ve seen more males act like this then women. The same goes for the the vixen. I’ve seen men and women use their sexuality to get what they want. flirting, teasing and under performing while still expecting to get loot or a raid spot. Hell the old raid officer of my guild before I took over the position was referred to as princess, and he was very much male.
So that’s where I am. I don’t really see these words as gender descriptors, I view them as ways to label actions. Did I not do it as well as I could have? again, probably could have used more polish. Do I regret posting it? No, not even close. The post was requested by more then a couple of my readers. The day I tell a reader no I won’t take a shot at a topic because I’m afraid of the repercussions is a day I stop writing period. It’s a hot button topic, mostly because of the verbage surrounding it, but if my readers want to read it I will write it, or at least try to.
For anyone I offended I’m sorry, I hope you realize that I’m NOT a chauvinist, not a pig, but rather a person who believes the words do honestly apply to people regardless of gender. I believe that the words only will have the gender bias for as long as we let them. I fully believe that words only have power and meaning that WE as a people give them. I don’t expect it to happen over night, but I wanted to explain they way I view things so people don’t think I’m just some raging chauvinist. I love my female guildies and raiders, I have grown to be quite close friends with them and I can’t imagine logging into the game without them there to talk to and share our triumphs and defeats with. They are some of my most stalwart raiders and if they read this I appreciate everything you guys do, I appreciate all my raiders.
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The dream was always the same. He could feel the Light being ripped from him, draining him of his strength of his very essence, until nothing was left but a shell. He wanted to scream but could find no voice. Truly when the Light was torn from him, it took with it all that made him who he was. As he lay there crippled staring at the night’s star less sky, there appeared from the treeline five figures. The ghost of a Talbuk, the spirit of the hunt accompanied by the shades of the elements strode forward to surround his body. The Talbuk reached down and touched his forehead and the approaching darkness was replaced by a blinding light…
Lodur woke with a start, no matter how many times he had the dream vision it never got any easier. For several months he had been having the vision. It started shortly after he aided in the downfall of the betrayer, Illidan. He had momentarily touched the skull of Gul’dan, and the dreams had plagued him ever since. It always began with intense pain, and ended with the blinding light. All points before and after remained shrouded to him. Lodur stood up slowly, gathering his wits about him weary and exhausted from too many sleepless nights.
“I should talk to the Farseer soon” he spoke aloud to the early morning’s pre light. His voice holding more uncertainty then he cared to admit.
Gathering his belongings, he reached into his backpack for the stone that would summon his mount. It was a smooth, small stone etched with a single rune. He held it in his hand and spoke the command word. Now he waited. It was only a few short seconds after he finished donning his armor and securing his shield that a golden Gryphon landed lightly in front of him. The avian creature cocked it’s head to the side as if to regard Lodur with a sense of irritation. Lodur smiled at the creature and offered it the remnants of the dried meat he had made dinner, and now breakfast out of. He patted the creature’s flank;
“Come my friend,” he said with familiarity in his voice “we have much to do.”
He lept onto the Gryphon’s back and the duo climbed into the air. It was time to see Nobundo.
So, as everyone is aware I’ve been writing for World of Matticus for a while now. As a result this blog is largly unused. I am going to go ahead and transform it into a blog for my short stories musings revolving around my character.
At the behest of several people I’ll be moving the blog from http://wayofthetotem.blogpost.com to here. I will move my old posts over here and will be supplying links in the old blog to new posts here. The reason for the switch if you are curious is more control. Blogger was great to start and worked very well with what I was doing but now it’s time to make it a little prettier. In the mean time don’t forget to stop by World of Matticus to check out my guest post.
Firstly I want to thank everyone for the kind emails and messages I received.
Secondly I have a new guest post up at
If you haven’t checked it out yet, please hop on over and take a look, leave comments and tell me what you thought.
Thanks for reading
Sorry for the lack of an update this week. We had a loss from our gaming circle this week. I will return to posting once services have completed.